"Sometimes I just feel like, quittin I still might
Why do I put up this fight"
"Sometimes it's hard enough just dealin with real life"
"The pressure's too much man, I'm just tryin to do what's best"
- random lyrics from 8mile by eminem

"Somedays I just wanna up and call the quits
I feel like I'm surrounded by a wall of bricks
Everytime I go to get up I just fall in pits
My life's like one great big ball of shit!"
"All I know is I'm about to hit the wall"
- random lyrics from run rabbit run by eminem

yea so i know i promised happier entries but i lied. To much is going on right now to be happy. Its gotten to the point where i just pretend to be happy. So other people wont see my pain, see everything going on inside me. i am so scared. Im tired of pretending i want to really be happy. to really enjoy everything. i try to, becuase in a few weeks i wont see my friends everyday. hell im scared, scared of what im going to be going thru and scared people will forget about me. everything was ok and now its horrible. ok this sounds selfish, but i dont deserve this, i dont deserve any of this.