Not Much is going my way right now. Nothing really is except the support of my friends. Which i had begun to doubt untill saturday night. I dont know why they stick by me, but they do and i dont want to question it. I need them more then they know. They all tell me they want to help. that scares me, opening up to people scares me. Im scared that once i do ask for help, they will be scared away or they wont want to. Which is silly becuase they do want to help. Saturday night really reminded me of that. There was always a hug avaliable when i needed it. I was able to talk to one of my best friends about it and i felt alittle better, and everytime i saw him that night i got a hug which was nice, becuase he gives the "everythings going to be alright, im always here for you" hugs. Those are my favorite. I love him. I am so thankful for him and all my friends. I dont know why i wrote this, its just getting to the point where if i dont write about it its all i think about, and i havent been able to sleep lately becuase im worried, and scared