Yo Ho Ho Ho its a pirates life for me!

Tonight was basicly the last night of summer that i could do whatever i wanted. I took alittle trip down to tucson to do some shopping, got 10 shirts and 2 skirts. Came home took a two hour nap and then went to a movie. Pirates of the Carribbean, it was a good movie, except i didnt like the skeletons, yuck. School starts in 1 day. Im not looking forward to it as much as i thought i was. I hate change, the fact that people change, or grow apart, or lose intrest in something they once loved. My sisters starting high school and that scares me, i still look at her like shes 10, now shes got a boyfriend and going off to high school. I think i have an idea of what i want to do when i graduate, and i think i want to stay here for school, but i dont want to at the same time. The only thing holding me back is family. I dont like the fact that i will probably lose touch with some of my closest friends, after we graduate, they all have big plans, they know where they want to go and what they want to be, and none of them want to stay here. I dont like the fact that most of my friends are graduating this year, and im stuck here for another year. I dont want these next two years to go by to fast. I want so much, but can only have so little. Im not in the greatest of moods tonight. Im frustrated, and analyizing myself far more than i should. For instance i realized how if i start a job i have to be the one who finishes it. i need to have that feeling of accomplishment, something i started and finsihed, And i get so mad when someone takes something ive started and finishes it. its not the greatest quality. I get frustrated when people dont listen to me. I hate how immature some people can be. I want to get away from everything and everyone here for 1 day, just spend a day somewhere left alone, becuase im so frustrated right now. I like smaller group get togethers, i like intelectual converstations where i can walk away feeling like i learned something, i dont like how people try to change my opinions on things just becuase i dont believe what they believe or they feel my beliefs are wrong. I dont like how some people try so hard to be something they are not. Or how people change in a matter of a second and get weird and i dont understand why. I dont like how people can joke around so much and then when someone jokes with them they get mad, or how everyone takes me so seriously. Or why people feel they need to change me, or yell at me or talk down to me. I dont understand why people dont realize life is hard, and they think everything should go fine with them.
Im so confused, and i just dont know what to make of all of this jumbled up mess inside my head