and you're scared to accept
someone to share your regrets
when you're aching
you go it alone
when you want to
you take what you need to make you whole
i know it's not easy
i know i can't feel through what you have been and trust
don't come easy
'cause to trust is to depend
and who wants to give up that part of them
-Midtown

Those Lyrics Explain Everything right now, I have never found something so true to how i feel.