Everything lovely and more.

A few years later I found my way back. Madly in love with a boy, starting our lives together in a small house with our two lovely dogs.

Saturday, May 10, 2003

Almost everything right now is such a blur of amazingness. For the first time in along time everything right now is decent. My surgery went well. That was the first time i ever admitted to anyone i was scared or afraid. I hated telling them but at the same time it was much needed. I am 9 days post surgery and i feel like a million bucks. Okay well not a million bucks but i feel good. I have little pain and lots of energy. It scares me that i am feeling this good but its a good thing. I went out today and spent a few hours at the ellies, never in a million years did i think i would be doing that 9 days after surgery. Last year i was in so much pain and still in bed now, but its different this time around. And Im So Glad. but i still have my off days. When i feel like crap and mentally its rough. But mentally this whole experience has been harder, and im still having problems. All hopefully will go away soon.
I think my friends really helped me through this and feel alot better this time around. I had alot of people with me before and alot visit me after. Mrs.Idler stopped by the hospital, Emily, Kaila,Jenna, Craig stopped by. Michelle and Michelle and her mom stopped by. Rob and Dan spent two hours entertaining me the last day i was there. The hospital didnt scare anyone away. I didnt think Rob would come but he spent two hours with me. Then Rob, Katie, Lacey, Jenna,Tedy And Emily stopped by and spent like 2 hours just hanging out when i got home. I am so glad to have these people. Greg and his happy songs that he told me to download the night before and i listened to atleast 20 times the next morning. RObs jokes, Andrews Hugs. Everyones support helped me so much. And it still is. I still need it.
The ellies were sad. I really realized how im losing 3 best friends this year. Not losing but i wont see them as much. Greg, Matt, And Joey. Matt is going to cali, but i will talk to him online so no worries. But next year is going to go by so fast and then i will lose almost all my best friends. Nextyear will be hard
This summer is going to rock, And i will have a digital camera so i will document my summer and figure out how to post photos on here.
Love To You All

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