Thank you guys for caring tonight, even if you feel like you did nothing you really did. I promise!

The Show was ROCKIN tonight, WOOOHOOO EVERYONE did a WONDERFUL job.

Today was a good day, becuase nothing went on. I didnt do anything at crew, just sat around and talked to people. Its funny how we have 4 days left and i dont want it to be over. Im just starting to have somewhat of a good time, just starting to have fun with people. Damn its stuff like this that makes me so sad to leave, so upset that i have to leave. Joke telling in the make up room, tickleing fights,pointless stories and good advice,laughing,cute boys,late nights dancing on stage, making fun of skull and cross bones,late night drives, mall trips, the fact that no matter how cocky, mean or annoying a certain few get they can still bring a smile to my face. The smell of burning rubber, why cant we be friends, swing music,comic books, hugs and so much more.

im tired of pretending to be happy. i guess i do a pretty good job at covering up my problems. sometimes i wish people would just see thru me. Im tired, stressed, terrified, and scared of the next breaking point.

Friday was stressful, we had to do a tech run before we started the run of the show, it took way longer than expected. Towards the end 4 or 5 people came up to ask me questions and all started to talk at the same time. I started to get stressed out. Fridays run was stressful, mondays will be even worse. Yesterday was a good day, even tho i woke up at 6 i still had fun. I went to crew, came home went to the plaster party, then rob,katie and i drove around for an hour or so just talking. we went and got dan and drove around for a while. Met up with some other kids, and then i went to the mall with danen,rob,phil, and dan. It was interesting. Came home got ready for the sleepover in 5 mins and left. Mom wasnt to happy but o well. The sleepover was fun for a while. At 2 i came home and went to bed. 1 week left, aah the stress.