Everything lovely and more.

A few years later I found my way back. Madly in love with a boy, starting our lives together in a small house with our two lovely dogs.

Saturday, November 01, 2003

Best Friends Means......

Today/tonight was very interesting.

It probably didnt help that i only got like 5 or 6 hours of sleep last night, Which i blame all on Casey. Because he talked about eldrige and creeped me out alot between the time we left the school and the time i took him home. I kept hearing things as i would fall asleep, and i just couldnt sleep because i would freak my self out. THen at like 8:30 an hour or so before i wanted to get up, he calls me to see how i slept, because when i dropped him off i was still really scared.

Some people brought up subjects tonight that bring back a lot of bad memories, so i was kind of down tonight. So on the way to drop casey off he asked me what made me happy, it was so random that i couldnt think of anything. So i thought about it on the way home, and so far here is what i came up with.

Happy Things
* Casey
* Rob
* Caseys Hugs, and our long talks and random adventures
* Robs Stupid jokes, and stories, and our long talks
* Theatre Company
* The stage even though i am too scared to be on there alone
* Hanging out with Casey and Sam
* My closest friends in Theater
* Driving people home
* TGIFridays
* My memories that i have with certian people
* All the stuff i have from shows that have cool stories behind it
* IHOP
* Pictures

thats all for now

Stand and stare at the catwalk....

Tonight was by far the scariest night ever. Eldridge stories, and creepy noises. I saw and heard things tonight, that scared the shit out of me. I sat in the back and cried because we werent allowed to leave.

I saw the shadows of "something" walking past the safety lights

I saw the booth door open

I saw the light next to the monitor when there is no light there in the first place

I saw someone or something up on the catwalk,

and then What little light was left go out.

I saw people that i never would have imagined would freak out, freak out

I heard Footsteps

i heard screams

I heard whispers and talking


I wanted so badly to leave and i couldnt, quinn wouldnt let us. It was terrible. And after it was over i wanted to leave. But casey had to go back in and look at the catwalk again. And Again i cried. Out of being so freaked out i couldnt think straight and that i didnt want anything to happen to him.


P.S. Jaclyn Is Awesome!!

Sunday, October 26, 2003

This Pictures Frozen and I Cant Get Out

One Acts are finally over! Not to say I didn’t have fun with them, there were certainly some very entertaining moments but it was very stressful.

Tuesday~~Once it was over a lot of the stress was gone, and I felt better. Michelle’s show went well, I was happy with it, then Kaila’s show… yea id rather not talk about that one. Everyone says it went well, but I think it could have been better. But hey it’s over now.

Wednesday~~we put together a set for Amy and Kenzies shows in less than an hour. And it was a full set with walls and doors. Oh that was crazy, both doors broke and they had to stop the show so we could fix them. It was funny; both shows that night were great.

Thursday~~These shows were some of the best. Tim’s show was so funny; Craig and Casey’s characters were the best.

Friday~~Casey and I had to do lights for both shows at the last minute, Because Katie was sick. They went well considering we both had learned how to use the lighting board literally 5 minutes before. Mikes show was really weird and out there but very well done. After one acts we cleaned and I ran a huge thing of chairs off the step in the drama room luckily Casey caught it so it didn’t fall over. I felt like a total idiot. I was supposed to go see the crow at Spectrum Theater but my mom decided after she told me I could go, to change her mind and say no. So I went with Casey to the Community Haunted House that a lot of our friends were working at. I felt like a loser because there was this one room with these little boys playing with chucky dolls, and they snuck up right behind me and yelled, and it freaked me out. Oh well.

Saturday~~I woke up and went to the set day. No one showed up. So there were only like 6 of us there. We got quite a bit done so I was very happy. After I went with Kaila to Deseret Industries, a Mormon owned thrift store. It’s my new favorite store. I got two shirts for a dollar a piece. :) I came home and went to AT&T and got a new phone, which I love except for its ringtones, I don’t like the new ringtones that sound like songs because they sound dumb, but I downloaded a few, Another One Bites The Dust, Bohemian Rhapsody, and Be our Guest, So its cool. Then I went and picked up Casey and we picked up Sam and went to the Hockey Game. It was MP vs. DV and we lost big time, I think it was 9-2. I almost forgot my jacket and then I wore sandals to the game. I’m a smart one. So I was freezing the entire game, and by the time we left I couldn’t feel my feet. It was great. We wanted to go get ice cream but cold stone was closed, so we went to 5 & Diner and got milkshakes. MMMM they were so good. It was a lot of fun; I have a lot of fun with those boys.

This week is going to be a busy one. I have crew all week, and the set needs to be done on Thursday, but I’m hoping we can get it done by Tuesday. Hopefully. Wednesday I think I’m going to see Grease with Casey and some others at MCC because Andrew is in it. It should be fun. And then Friday is Halloween, and I have the haunted house, and then I’m going out with Casey, Sam, Kaila and some others. Saturday I have the cast vs. crew kickball game and next week is Show week and Casey’s soccer game on Wednesday. And then there is nothing until auditions in December, which is sad. That will leave a lot of free time, which I won’t know what to do with.

“Please help me 'cause I'm breaking down,
this picture's frozen and I can't get out”
“Every time I think I've finally made it
I learn I'm farther away than I've ever been before”
“A small confession I think I'm starting to lose it
I think I'm drifting away from the people I really need”
“I'm afraid I'm falling farther away from where I want to be”

- Lyrics from Trapt

These lyrics have been running through my head all day. Its funny how some lyrics just relate so much to how you feel.