I dont mean on the phone

I have been really down lately
This week has been one hell of a ride
Tonight will go one of two ways
Really good
or really bad
Please be really good
I need to figure out whats going on
Too bad i already know whats going on
i wish i didnt
Oh well
what can i do
Not a damn thing
Soccer Soon
and i need to get ready
but im on here
writing about pointless crap
No one reads this anyways
Last night was so peaceful
Tonight the same way please?
Its the weekend it needs to be fun
not sad and miserable
I need out
Now.......

I treat my shoes like my ride

I cant sleep
Booooooo I need sleep

Have you ever?

Tonight was fun
we somehow ended up at sun ray park again
Casey scared me, like literally, scared me like 3 times tonight
Talking
Stupid songs that bring back stupid memories
Being the queen of something, not so good
Rumors.
Stupid rumors
Cold
Freezing
Laying on the slide
Being thouroughly freaked out
Crying....... Booooo
Tomorrow night
i mean tonight
being tired
wanting to sleep
but knowing i probably wont be able too
knowing i will be woken up by one of my best friends
Falling asleep on one of my friends, at the park in the cold
Tonight was Magnificent

Goodnight

Little More Hope

Today was alright.
So sleepy
and there is no chance of sleep this weekend
and i cant sleep early tonight
ER is on
Have to find out who dies
Hmmmm WHo is it?
Tomorrow is friday, yay!
Cancell school and start the weekend early, i think so
Yay for getting notes from two special people
and pretty pens to write notes in
and having two subs tomorrow
and doing no work in 2 classes
Boo having to go back to the band room
Stupid kids who cant control themselves
we are in highschool for gods sake
Its much easier to write like this than paragraphs
So i can get to stompin' in my air force ones
Get it out of my head please?
I asked nicely does that count for anything?
FRIDAYNOWPLEASE?

Why are you writing a note to yourself?

So today was fun.
I got yelled at first hour, for laughing at the note casey wrote me.
Got caught twice writing notes to chiara.
Ran on no sleep today
Was probably a bitch( sorry if i was)
Was actually excited to Babysit 6 kids next week
Had alot of Awkward moments with people who dislike me
Found out someone is mad at me, but i just dont care, its always something with that person. And i cant take having everything blamed on me anymore
Found out i have 2 subs on friday
Talked to casey( who made my day 50 thousand times better)
Talked to chiara( who made my day 50 thousand times better)
Was grumpy all day BOOOO

If you could step
into my head, tell
Me would you still know me

And if I made you mad today,
Tell me would you love me tomorrow?

Or would you say that you don’t care,
And then leave me standing here
Like the fool who is drowning in dispair ?

You took for granted all the times
I never let you down





That is all for now

Oh and the C with cookie monster reminds me of caseys cookie monster voice on monday

Im bored real entry will come tonight

____REGULAR INFORMATION

001. name : Casey
002. nicknames : Case, Caseabase, Kay-C, Trixie, Miss Piggy,
003. sex : Girl
004. birthday : Jan, 1st, 1987
005. age : 16
006. star sign : Capricorn
007. place of birth : Boring old Phoenix,
008. current residence : Arizona
009. hair colour : Dark Brown with Red Highlights
010. eye colour : Brown
011. height : 5'10"( i hate being tall)
012. writing hand : righty.

____BODY iLLS + SKiLLS
013. do you bite your nails :Yea its a nervous habit
014. can you roll your tongue : Nope
016. can you raise one eyebrow at a time : nope
017. can you blow smoke rings : Nope
018. can you blow spit bubbles : Haha gross
019. can you cross your eyes : No.
020. colored hair : .
021. tattoos and where :Wouldnt you like to know?

022. piercing and where : No.
023. do you make your bed daily : nope
024. what goes on first bra or underwear : underwear
025. which shoe goes on first : i wear sandals like everyday and i dont pay attention
026. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone : yes. last person was casey i believe, or maybe rob
027. how much money is usually in your wallet? : not alot if any
028. what jewelry do you wear 24/7: I usually wear a a necklace ive had forever but i dont wear it much anymore
029. whats sexiest on a guy : Eyes, especially gorgeous blue eyes. Mmm and Smile.... Oh Personality first tho
030. would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great : Depends on who im going out with
031. do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it : Twirl.
032. how many cereals are in your cabinet : 6.
033. what utensils do you use eating pizza : my hands…DUH
034. do you cook : Yes but im not too good at it. I dont have patience enough for it

____GROOMiNG
035. how often do you brush your teeth :Twice
036. how often do you shower/bathe : Once in the Morning.
037. how long do these showers last : 10 minutes max.
038. hair drying method : Blowdry
039. do you paint your nails : yep.
040. do you swear : Yes( bad habit i know i blame it all on casey)
041. do you mumble to yourself : Yes when im sad or mad especially.
042. do you spit in public : nope.
043. do you pee in the shower :Gross
044. person you talk most on the phone with : Casey and i hate the phone.
045. what color is your bedroom : Red
047. name one thing or person you're obsessed with: Causing Trouble HAHAHA
048. have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex : Ummmm does it matter (yes).
049. ever sunbathed in the nude: Nope.
050. window seat or aisle : window.
051. whats your sleeping position: On my stomach
052. what kind of bed do you like : My queen sized bed,
053. in hot weather do you use a blanket : yes because the air is on full blast.
054. do you snore : nope.
055. do you sleepwalk : nope.
056 do you talk in your sleep : no
057. do you sleep with a stuffed animal : yes
058. how about the light on : nope.
059. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on : neither

____WHEN WAS THE LAST TiME YOU
060. had sex : Hmmmm. wouldnt you like to know
061. were kissed or kissed someone : like actually kissed? long time ago. Friend kissed, May
062. watched bambi : over the summer
063. cried : Last night when i called casey
064. talked on the phone : Chiara during aclab
065. read a book : Tuesday in english
066. punched someone : Today .... Casey, i believe

____MUSiC
067. is music important to you : Its my savior
068. do you sing? : Yes even tho i have a crap voice
069. what is one band/singer you absolutely love that no one else does or seems to have heard about : Nickel Creek

Yesterday

Today was interesting alot of things happened. Both good and bad. I dont feel like talking about them.
Im tired and grumpy
Fridaynowplease?

Nothing i can say will justify how wonderfully amazing this night was.
I am on such a happy high from it
I have need this for so long
I have needed people like casey and chiara for so long
and i am so scared that they are going to up and walk away, just like everything else good in my life
I dont have the best track record with keeping the things that make me happy
and i told both of them that tonight.
and they both said they would leave
and i just hope and hope and hope its true

Laying on slides
being pushed down slides
swinging
talking and talking and talking
never wanting it to end
not wanting to go to sleep
falling asleep on the slide, even if it only was for 5 minutes
being scared
talking some more
trying not to cry
knowing away from home i am in a good place
knowing i have people to talk to
actually having people to trust
and people who care
people who want to hang out with me

Tonight was incredible, and words cant describe it. Except that im doing ok... finally im doing ok

Hmmmm

tonight im going to yet another soccer game with my favorite soccer buddy.

Everything is so right, right now its wonderful

Think of me Babe whenever

5 & diner

my 2 favorite people

Laughing over the dumbest things all day and night

being part of the devilish duo

not wanting to change a thing

apartment

california

wishing the night would never end

knowing the person who knows most about me isnt going anywhere

or the person who knows close to alot about me isnt going anywhere either

trying so hard not to cry

wishing i could forget the bad, but being so greatful i remember the good

wishing my mom hadnt put me in a bad mood

but being so glad that my best friend was there to ask what was wrong and make it better

Laughing more

Being attacked by the ball

Soccer

and so much more

This weekend, should never end.

knowing it will makes me sad

knowing there will be many more makes me happy

this happy high better never go away

please dont let it go away

i need it so much right now

I wish tonight never ended

Nothing to Prove

Today was Magnificent. I was happy a majority of the day, and a majority of the night, there was probably an hour tonight where i wasnt happy. Memories are a bitch, just so everyone knows. Oh and im tired of being yelled at.

Chiara is wonderful, and if you didnt know that then shame on you. and i had so much fun with her today. We are soccer buddies!

Casey is my best friend, good lord i would be so lost and unhappy with out him.

These two people are the best friends i have ever had and i hope they both know how much i love them