Tonights the night, when everything will feel right

Tonight was alright, it got progressively better as the night went on.

*I was dumb and took 3 tylenol or motrin( mom said it was ok, i dont believe her anymore) at like 4 while i was eating pizza with dan and rob it totally hit me, made me so freakin tired. So i was out of it for like 2 hours. Dont take more than the suggested dose.

*I fought with casey about his slingshot and held my own untill he almost snapped my wrist.

*Laughed with tina and casey

*Wanted to bitch out rob( why i dont know)

*Almost cried( Boooo Crying)

* Boo for casey making me say Boo All the time

*My Best Friend is mad at me because i cant tell her whats been going on this week

*Casey Parties in my car

*Chasing casey with glitter

*Rob having lots of red glitter in his hair and how sparkly he is

* Venting with Michelle


I came to the conclusion tonight that without, Casey L, Chiara and Michelle, i would have gone totally crazy this show. Thank you guys for being there for me! I LOVE YOU

"How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew"
~~~ Incubus (Stellar)

Today was not in anyway a good day.
I had to yell at people, i was called a bitch, one of my best friends made me cry...


I want things to be better

The Leaves are changing and so is everything else

Everyone said once october was over, everything would get better. Well i am 6 days into november and things arent anywhere near better. everything right now is no fun. and there is only one person i can talk to, and thats only because he was there when most of it happened.

If i am called a stupid bitch one more time, i am going to lose it. Stop saying it already, its not a joke its not funny.

Sorry im a dissapointment, i guess i cant make everyone happy. But let me ask you this, when is it my turn to be happy?

The sky is falling, where are you going?

"The pressure is building I want to break away
Motivation is lacking the point starts to fade
I look to the bottom still empty still the same
I'm waiting for something to show me the way
To the path that I should take, it's just too real to go ahead and fake
Every step that I make
Name your price I would give anything
I want to start over again
What do I want I have nothing to say
Whatever it is I want it today
Do we choose our own ground Do we choose to stay
Well I've seen too many throw it away

Do I see just one small chance to be myself to try and make it last
Every step that I take"


There will be a real entry when i have something happy to write about